That is, is it that she doesn't think she has the right to live a normal life? Or that she doesn't value one? Maybe her entire self-image is so centered on being an ideological warrior that she simply can't see any point to just being herself. It's not that she doesn't value a normal life. Perhaps she doesn't value herself living a normal life. She sees no value or purpose in just living a normal, ideologically uniformed life. She cannot figure out why the artist wasted her life making art but respects the husband who is actively supporting his political agenda (even if it is opposing her agenda).
Perhaps 'mere' human love isn't as important to her as her love of the Cause. I'm sure she feels like she is worthy of being loved, but perhaps love isn't enough for her. Her job demands that she put the Cause ahead of her family, always.
Philip is being put in an ideologically driven spot, too. He's being asked to put his love for Russia ahead of his love for his wife.
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Re: Replacing family
Date: 2018-04-09 02:44 am (UTC)Maybe her entire self-image is so centered on being an ideological warrior that she simply can't see any point to just being herself. It's not that she doesn't value a normal life. Perhaps she doesn't value herself living a normal life. She sees no value or purpose in just living a normal, ideologically uniformed life. She cannot figure out why the artist wasted her life making art but respects the husband who is actively supporting his political agenda (even if it is opposing her agenda).
Perhaps 'mere' human love isn't as important to her as her love of the Cause. I'm sure she feels like she is worthy of being loved, but perhaps love isn't enough for her. Her job demands that she put the Cause ahead of her family, always.
Philip is being put in an ideologically driven spot, too. He's being asked to put his love for Russia ahead of his love for his wife.