I'm very sorry and I'm also ashamed, but here I don't get you
Sorry, I meant that she's not just thinking, "I didn't think you'd come because you don't think I'm worth it." She's also thinking, "I didn't think you'd come because I'm really not worth it." Like she's down on herself as well as him. Maybe it was even a little easier for her to imagine him letting her down and feeling bad about it when she died--now she has to think about how much he does care about her? It's a complicated moment for sure!
Re: Philip and Elizabeth
It's Elizabeth's fault! :-)
And S4 ep 4!
Sorry, I meant that she's not just thinking, "I didn't think you'd come because you don't think I'm worth it." She's also thinking, "I didn't think you'd come because I'm really not worth it." Like she's down on herself as well as him. Maybe it was even a little easier for her to imagine him letting her down and feeling bad about it when she died--now she has to think about how much he does care about her? It's a complicated moment for sure!